Ex-cetera

誠意 cheng yi - sincerity

I am not happy with someone. You'd think that after all these years, after all that we have been through, there would be more respect & discretion in terms of this 'friendship'. Almost a decade, and in the end, he still does not get the concept of sincerity and mutual respect.

It's not like I think about this day and night and lose sleep over losing this 'friend/family member'. But I am just saying, sometimes you just have to say goodbye, it's easier to let go than to grab onto nothing.

Just another by passer in my life. I shake my head, I give up, tata.

In this congested city...

I was in awe on Saturday night. I never thought something like this would happen to me. I came across the most cliche pick-up line ever.

Boy comes up to me, "Are you Apple?"

Me: umm. No.

Boy: Oh, sorry, cuz you look JUST like my friend Apple.

Me: Well no sorry I am not. (and then turn around to talk to my girlfriend)

Boy: Well my name is XXX. (I forgot)

Me: Susan.

Me: ................

I didn't know shit like this still existed. And after the boy left,

Friend: (shakes head) Oldschool.

Me: uh-huh.

You would think that they'd have the decency to atleast come up with a better name than Apple. But no. It's amazing.

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Another weekend past... In the past 2 weeks I've had plenty of realizations which I haven't had the chance to write about. Some of these I will keep to myself, as I wouldn't want to disappoint people. But others, I will share:

#1 - A friend of mine is going to be producing a documentary on the emerging trend in Taiwan that single, successful women are unable to find up-to-par men. He will follow 3 types of women around town to find out WHY this is happening and HOW women are ever going to be able to find eligible bachelors in Taiwan, backed by statistics, interviews, and research studies. It's a legitimate documentary. I mean I would definitely watch it.

Makes me think of all the girls around me - all different yet incredible women. Well-educated, studied abroad, smart, capable, decent jobs, not slutty, pretty, good style...the list goes on. Why are we all single / not married?

Reminds me of the Sex and the City episode - Single and Fabulous? - I think not. Obviously, I am on Team Femme. A lot of the boys here, ABC or not, really need to check themselves. I've been back to Taiwan for 3 or so years, and here are types of men me and my girls have come across....

1. Mr. Obsessed - "I think I am really falling for you" (after the 3rd date)
2. Mr. Looks-super-good-on-paper-but-something-is-missing/wrong aka Mr. Shady - usually the liar
3. Mr. Player - the cocky bastards.
4. Mr. Nice Guy - booo no fun.
5. Mr. Plain - the kind who orders plain cheese pizza at Pizza Hut or something hahaha
6. Mr. Hit-on-anything - usually has nothing to offer, therefore nothing to lose, so hits on anything hoping to score a girlfriend.

Hmm... While thinking of all the misters, I had another thought - maybe WE (the girls) are the ones who are fucked. The above list does not give men the time of day! hHAHAAH... super cynical.

I'm sad now. Time for bed. Sleep my sorrows away.

Recently...

• Went to Pindong to help typhoon victims - the most meaningful weekend i've experienced in a long time.
• Went ice skating a few times.
• Went clubbing.
• Went to KTV.
• Picked out Deborah's tattoo
• Went to Shanghai and found my new love, Derrick.
• Just had a crazy weekend...

And this is recently....

The Gran Torino

I haven't shed a tear in sooo long that I almost forgot HOW to cry. And I certainly don't (usually) cry at movies. But the Gran Torino really hit the spot.

Wow.

Clint Eastwood is oldschool. He is amazing.

The tears came down like waterfalls. WOW WOW WOW...

Love / Bread

The topic of discussion lately among the girls is "Love / Bread". I think people who know mandarin should know what I mean.

For people who don't, let me elaborate:

Love - Passionate, uncontrollable feelings for the other person, regardless of any differences in social status or family background.

Bread - the material qualities that 'fit' your requirements to be your other half... ie. Family background, education, financial status, husband/wife material traits.

We've been discussing which is more important at this point of our lives. We've all seen movies where the princess falls for the tramp, or the ridiculous romantic chick flicks where the successful woman falls in love with the dude that has no career (think What Happens in Vegas). In the end, which would you choose? Love? Bread?

Someone told me (actually, lots of older female friends have been telling me), as I get closer and closer to 30, bread becomes more important in finding that right one.

So, a 30 year old woman will meet a guy, whom may not be the tallest, best lookin, best dresser.. but he is a nice guy, not repulsively unattractive, from a good family, perhaps even studied abroad, with a good job earning way above average income. She will think, ok, I will put him in my "pool of potential men" first, since he fits all the requirements of a decent other half. Then, try to see if she is able to develop feelings for him based on that. This is the decision process of a 30-year-old woman when seeking a mate.

I'm still living in my own little fairy tale. I don't think I can try to fall for a boy based on his requirements. It all seems too much like a job interview - position: decent hubby. I don't want decent. I want great. I want to be speechlessly attracted to a boy, get to know him, realize that he has EVERYTHING I want, then fall in love, get married, have babies.

Mark this.. my ratio of Love/Bread = 70/30 at this day. I'm 26. Let's see how much this ratio will change in 4 years.

Good times this week. Went to the beach, and Tommy was back. What could be better?